IMAGINE

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For a second now, imagine you could let go of everything that’s ever troubled you in the past and that the only attitude towards what has been and which now serves you is gratitude. Then imagine that there is absolutely nothing you need to worry about for the future and that the only thing your future depends upon is you being present here and now. Now notice the heavy giant load of things that just disappeared from your mind and understand how all that was making you blind to what you now perceive as you are being fully present in this specific moment. Notice how you are still alive and functioning though you are not chewing on the past as if it were non-disposable gum nor planning for the future as if your life depended on it. Notice that you’re still breathing, that your mind is clearing up and that your every little actions are becoming conscious and thus much more effective. Now see if you can discern the story that has conditioned you to escape this precious moment by trying to find false refuge in memories and expectations. Are you not very alive at the moment? What has led you to avoid this so much? And can you feel that whatever it is, it does not resonate with truth as you sit consciously in this now? Can you see that this moment is the source of all life and that this is where we need to be in order to survive harmoniously on this earth? Can you see?

the way love moves

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I have been crying, balling, sobbing all night now. I was going to write when I stopped myself and realized words would be deficient in the overwhelmingly emotional state I was in. Then I sat down by the piano, which I have no clue how to play, and allowed my feelings to drizzle out onto its keyboard along with vocals I hadn’t at all planned for. And suddenly I found myself playing and singing a song, surprisingly beautiful too. I guess this is what love does to us. It makes us move. It makes us create. Usually I would have gone to write right away, or maybe dance for a while. But love needed me to expand even further and find more ways to express my emotions. Love does not settle. Love does not say ‘fine we’ll leave it at that and go no further’. Love pushes the boundaries, all the time. Sometimes it’s subtle, maybe because we’re fighting it or maybe because we’re not paying enough attention. But even now as I am writing I am noticing how love is pushing me to write grander and faster. Love is asking me, no not even asking but demanding me to keep on striving. Love is commanding me and moving me onward, inward, outward and in all conceivable directions. Love is not telling me to stick to what I know. Love is telling me to learn more, keep on exploring, keep on pushing, pushing and pushing. But love doesn’t mean that in a bad way. It’s not saying that what I’ve got right here isn’t enough, quite the contrary, it is telling me that everything I have right here, right in this moment, is abundant already. It is everything and more. It’s saying that what I’ve got right here and right now is precisely what I need to create the circumstances for more. Not that I need more. It is only saying all this so that I learn what more really is. More is not a concept in the future. More is what we find right here when we look into things from the angle of love. Love is more. More is one of the very many definitions of love. Love is more, and also so much more than that. Love. Love is every second of every day of every life. Love is what keeps on going. What makes us keep on going. It is the head corner stone of all life, of all movement, of all bettering, of all creation. When we move in tune with love we are dancing to the rhythm of evolution. It is an ever-flowing, endless beat that, though it keeps on going steady, never ever creates the exact same music twice. Every verse and every tune is unique, seeking to be followed by an even better one. And such is how life goes on creating itself with the help of love. Love is that gravitational force into the infinity and abundance of the moment so that we can expand effortlessly into the next. How amazing it is really. How very mind-blowing, gut wrenchingly beautiful. How genius and how magnificent. There is truly never a dull moment in life once we take note of the love that is guiding us, in its continuous managing of the resources that life entail, pushing and pulling. And to realize that we were all blessed with a heart, a living outlet for love into our otherwise so rational beings… to realize that we are vessels of this love, no matter how little or how much we are aware of it! And even better so to realize that we can actually be aware of such a brilliant phenomenon going on in and outside of ourselves, constantly and ever so stunningly. New, new, new is the song of love. And even if that seems harsh to the mind that also always sees the old passing sometimes brutally quick, it is the way life must be for it to be at all. New, new, new also means better, better, better, at least from the perspective of love, which we can all see from through our very own hearts. Move on, move forward and create, it tells me. Love loves to create; it is all it ever does. So if that means life is its stage and I am its instrument to continue doing so, I am game. I am definitely game. Will you come and play?

NOW YOU KNOW

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 You ask me questions but I have learned they are yours and not mine; therefor I need not to answer them as you wish them to be answered.

I will not tell you the lies you hoped for but in their place I will respectfully hand you the answers that reveal my truth.

I tell you this not with certainty but with courage, not with pride but with humility, and not with vanity but with love.

So if you shall ask, now you know.

THE OPPORTUNITY

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Sometimes I wonder if I’m good enough. I ask if anybody really cares. I doubt that anyone ever truly listens. I fear that I don’t matter.

But that only happens when I let the world out there judge the world in here. Yes, sometimes it slips my mind that I don’t write for recognition, that I don’t need to persuade anyone of anything and that as long as I follow my heart I cannot fail. I forget that my words are not solely a means for a future goal but truly a goal in themselves. Each sentence, each word, each syllable and each letter is a complete universe that is meaningful in its pure existence. Just as every person is complete in their simple presence and their every feature is perfect in its actuality, the words that I have written fulfill their own purpose in this world. As soon as they are written and uttered they are not mine to care for, they are not mine to neither be ashamed of nor take praise for. I am the facilitator, simply one who unleashes what needs to be freed; I am nothing but the opportunity.

 

Suddenly all of my questions, doubts and fears dissolve into thin air because they were only real in the world out there. They belonged to the world of narrow minds, big achievements and superficial recognition, a world that, however much it struggles, cannot accurately translate the enchanted messages of the world within. Only in creativity can these worlds be linked with a gate, through us, the enablers. Only in a shackle-free and open mind can the wind blow from within and without, connecting two parallel worlds through a simple break. Only then can the magic from the world within flow freely out in the world without and project its true beauty for our eyes to see. I am that opportunity, and for that I matter.